Blog Purpose Announcement: Figuring Things Out

           Ok, so realization. I sit here and try to say im smart, right? And i have debated with eli all the time he he trumps me all the time right? He has done his research, he knows hes right. Alot of the time, i really think im right, but i hav no way of bringing a source. Most of what i say is learned from random gathered knowledge, some just my own take and understanding of things, some things that ive heard but cant say i "learned". Im a productive high. Instead of just sitting there only watching documentaries when im with eli, or paining myself to try to find a documentary ill enjoy by myself...i can do what alot of stoners cant, just open my text book and actually do my HW and learn something that way...i kno this is a "uh duh" moment, but its helpful to have those stupid realizations that you should have had long ago.

         Im still deciding whether i want this blog to be for my every whining thought when im high, or only certain ones. i really liked my glee post but im not so sure about this one. This one makes me seem whiny, not introspective and thought provoking. Now, the glee one, while had a silly, not intelligent topic, it was both expressed intelligently and provoked deeper ideas. This one just seems like im a girl. It could be bc im sobering...so maybe thats why im all whiny...interesting thought....

     Anyway...we shall see how i decide to limit this...over and out

P.S. With inclusions like the sign-offs ive been doing and along with this very P.S. note, this blog is becoming more of a journal/diary not a journal of ideas...not so sure im happy about that...will contemplate and figure it out....

....and so the lofty journey commences....

So it has begun. 
          This shall stand as an archive for myself forever. Of the times in college where I was in a "transition" period and was self-medicating. Also getting really high. Kids, 20 years from now when you find this with ur future alien technology, dont think less of your dad, i can actually explain this really well. And if ur my kids that means u've probably heard several of my long rants explaining myself. Being my kids actually also means you hav a tendency for this urself. So u might enjoy it. Actually no bc if ur my kids then u also hate listening to ppl...hmm...but i did have the capability of overcoming that sometimes, especially when the info was something i knew i could use for later. So its unsure, maybe. 
         Anyways, I leave this blog here to be a journal of my thoughts. I know im crazy, and that i think of alot of things. Some make sense, others dont. But somehow i came to the thoughts. Whats cooler to realize is not that i might be wrong, but the understanding of the thought process that led me to my answer anyway. Let that mess with your head a bit...
         AHHEM, anyway....im gonna write stuff here when im high and keep it archived to read later, laugh at myself, and maybe if one of them makes sense, to use the knowledge to gain a new understanding of mankind, Life as we know it, and the One.